Wednesday Weigh-in-week 1

Okay. So I've debated and debated and debated whether or not I should post this-well the specifics of this post-but decided that I've posted enough personal information about me that this really isn't a big deal. However, when I think about how many people read this blog-even people I might not know about-it's kind of intimidating, so I'm hoping it'll give me that extra motivation I need to really push myself to reach my goal.

It took less than 5 weeks for me to lose my baby weight with Tyler. I didn't do anything special, besides nursing, it just floated off. I fully expected things to work the same way this time, but here we are 9 weeks later and I still have 10 more pounds to lose. After about 4 weeks I just stopped losing weight and haven't been able to since and I'm SO SICK of it! I just feel gross! Thankfully it's freezing cold here so I can use that as an excuse to wear a sweatshirt everyday, but I'm getting sick of rotating through the 4 sweatshirts I own-well that, and the fact that our laundry bill is starting to go up-so here we go! Time to lose weight! Don't worry I'm not doing this to fish for compliments (although feel free :) ) because I know I'm not "fat", I just don't feel like myself and I hate that. I just want to feel good about myself again. This is by far THE single most embarrasing thing I've ever done because I HATE talking about my weight and now I'm going to be broadcasting it to the entire world weekly, but I need something to give me that extra push to roll out of bed in the morning and knowing that all of you will be "watching" me will hopefully do the trick!

So how do I go about accomplishing this? I don't want to get a gym membership because 1)we can't afford one 2) I have no idea how to use gym equipment 3) I'm completely unmotivated and would never make myself go work out 4)I have no idea how many reps of everything you're supposed to do and would call it good after 3 sets of 1 per week. 5) It would be a waste of money because the only thing I would need it for would be the classes. The one positive: daycare so you can work out whenever it's convenient for you! Unfortunately, I need something that will push me, that will tell me not to quit. I'm all about someone telling me I'm doing great-even when I'm not- and says, "okay just 8 more you can do it!" Hmmm... who would this person be? A personal trainer! Oh wait, I can't afford one. Okay back to square one.

Oh the rec center would be perfect because they have aerobics classes-with motivating instructors- that you can pay for individually (2$ per class). Problem? No daycare. Back to square one.

Work out at home. Problem? No room. Tyler all over me. Neighbors underneath us. No one to tell me I'm doing great. Back to square one. (Is this getting old yet?!)

Okay, let's rethink our options. The best one would be the $2 aerobics class, but the only ones I could go to (since 1)they don't have daycare 2)I'm nursing so I have to work around that schedule 3) Bobby's work schedule and, 4)we just have one car) would be 5:45 am or 7:30 pm. Hmmm....7:30 won't work because that's when we start getting Tyler ready for bed and I can't miss that every night. Guess it's going to have to be 5:45.

AHHHH Im SO tired! Even though the rec center's only about 10 min. away (well 15 on mornings that the roads are icy and I have to drive 20 mph to get there) I have to be up by 5:00 to pump a bottle for Bobby to feed the baby in case she wakes up to eat while I'm gone. Now this might not be a big deal to some of you but I am NOT NOT NOT a morning person-especially with those late baby nights. I love my sleep and it is so hard to get out of bed when it is dark and cold and I have to go scrape ice and snow off my car at 5:30 in the morning. Okay so it's not that bad. Tues. and Thur. I go to their 6:30 pm class because Bobby doesn't have to work, but MWF (and every other Sat) I get to wake up bright and early. Wish I could say after class I'm all energized and ready to go for the day, but I'm not! I'm tired, and I want to go back to bed, and I can barely walk because my legs are shaking from doing lunges across the floor all morning. I hate it!!! I've only been doing this for 2 weeks though so maybe my body just needs to adjust. Ahhhh, the joys of childbearing.

Well now that I've fully vented and feel LOTS better, here are the details. I took my starting weight last Sun. (3/1) and will do a "weigh in" every Wed. from here on out and post the results-good or bad. (I was going to do it every sun., but they're just too hectic in the mornings here so I decided to do it mid-week instead.)

Starting Weight-3/1
134.6

Week 1 (and a half)-3/11
133.2
I know this isn't a lot , but I'm happy because it's the first time I've lost any weight in 5 weeks! I might add measurements too if I can find a tape measure around here...

Goal: 123 (pre baby weight) by 07/01 (family vacation). So that gives me 4 mo. to lose about 10 lbs. I've never had any weight loss goals before so that's kind of a shot in the dark, but I hope that's a realistic goal. (any opinions?) After that I'll shoot for pre-wedding weight- I don't remember the exact number, but it was somewhere between 115-120.

Wow, it kind of feels good to have it all out in the open now...kind of! Wish me luck!

Oh, and I should give my friend MaryBeth the credit for this. I got this idea from her because she so bravely posts her weight loss weekly, and I thought it would be a great motivator for me as well, so thank you MB for the idea! (well, maybe thank you...this might be a huge embarrassment for me!)